brandy
15-Feb-07, 04:13
I just wanted to take the time to say Thank You to all the wonderful people on here who have offered us so much support in this time of grief.
The past week has been the worst time in my entire life, and honestly im amazed ive made it this far.
there have been times when all i wanted to do was curl up and follow thomas.
I have never ever known how empty a woman can feel, until she looses a child.
i have felt as if i am empty, and a part of me is missing.
Almost as if there is a big gaping hole inside of me.
i woke up yesterday.. expecting it to be the hardest day of my life.
But amazingly it wasnt.
In this last week.
We have been surrounded by the love and well wishes of so many people.
Many of whom, have never met us.. or even have ever spoken to us.
it has lifted my spirits no end, to see all the thoghtful caring people on here.
in some of my darkest moments, i have come on to the org. just to read and re-read the multitude of posts and private msgs that have been sent to us.
in a time when the world is starting to thing the milk of human kindness is drying up, i have found it to be overflowing!
I can not begin to express our gratitude and thanks for all the well wishes and thoughts of sympathy at this time.
i dont even know where to begin.
But I do want to let everyone know how wonderful you all are.
from the moment this nightmare began last week,
everyone has bent over backwards to help us and offer us comfort.
the mw's and dr's in Raigmore were so wonderful.
everyone came and spoke to us, walked with us thru those first few horrific days.
when tom was born, the Mw's from the first moment, treated him like he was alive. and a real little person, which he was just no longer with us.
they held him for me right after he was born, rubbing my hair telling me all about him.
how big and handsome he was.
talked to him, bathed him dressed him, and gave him back to us...
always keeping in our minds that he was our beloved little boy,
and that we had just a few precious hours to fit in a lifetime.
the chaplins in raigmore came to us several times.. doing anything they could to help. helpiong with arrangments where they could and generally being there when ever we needed to talk.
before i even came home, the mws here were calling down to check on me,
offering their thoughts and prayers. and once i came home. well what can i say, where i come from you would never have the caring and compassion there that you have here.
the medical staff, have been so very wonderful ...
my MW has been an angel... she has been here these last days.. to talk to me.. let me have a good cry and to reasure me! on top of checking my wound and giving me a hard time for going into cleaning rages... when i broke down! *Grins*
even the drs, have taken time from their busy busy schedules to comfort us, and help us thru this.. and as much demand as they have taking that extra time.. i really really thank all the medical staff!!
our friends and family have been wonderful..
sometimes you dont realise how much it means to you just to be able to talk to someone.
not about anything in particular.. and a lot of the times.. not even about thomas.. or the past week..
just silly little inconsequntial (spelling again) things.
things that uplift your spirit and make you laugh!!
I also wanted to make a special note to oliver vellacott and the baptist church.
Thomas's funeral was such a very beautiful service.
he had a perfect fare well.
his flowers were so beautiful and his wee little coffin was georgeous.
thank you claire for all your hard work.
but olivers service, was actually a very happy occasion, if you can belive it.
he comforted us, and made everyone feel that even though tom was no longer with us.. we would see him again, and that it was ok.
even at a time when nothing seems ok.
i want to thank everyone that came today,
I know it was a hard thing to do, as no one wants to see a baby be buried.
but knowing that so many cared, was very uplifting.
belive me if i hadnt had to be there.. i wouldnt have gone!
all in all it was a really good day, considering what the day was.
we laid our beautiful son to rest. But at the same time, i realised that i am not alone in this world.
that there are so many people that love us, and are here to walk thru this world with us,
that is one of the most precious gifts i have ever been given.
and i just really wanted to thank you all.
the folks here on the org. has really shown their true colors, and what a beautiful sight they are.
we have our fights, and lord knows we can bicker and hew and haw.. for weeks.
but like any good family this past week has shown me, how close knit we are.
and how much we care about one another.
we are a family here.
I want each and every one of you to know that.
and it has touched my heart and lifted my spirits no end to know that
there are so many people on the other side of this screen that care so much!
Thank You ALL From the Bottom Of My Heart.
You have made this last week bearable..
and I love you all
Brandy
The past week has been the worst time in my entire life, and honestly im amazed ive made it this far.
there have been times when all i wanted to do was curl up and follow thomas.
I have never ever known how empty a woman can feel, until she looses a child.
i have felt as if i am empty, and a part of me is missing.
Almost as if there is a big gaping hole inside of me.
i woke up yesterday.. expecting it to be the hardest day of my life.
But amazingly it wasnt.
In this last week.
We have been surrounded by the love and well wishes of so many people.
Many of whom, have never met us.. or even have ever spoken to us.
it has lifted my spirits no end, to see all the thoghtful caring people on here.
in some of my darkest moments, i have come on to the org. just to read and re-read the multitude of posts and private msgs that have been sent to us.
in a time when the world is starting to thing the milk of human kindness is drying up, i have found it to be overflowing!
I can not begin to express our gratitude and thanks for all the well wishes and thoughts of sympathy at this time.
i dont even know where to begin.
But I do want to let everyone know how wonderful you all are.
from the moment this nightmare began last week,
everyone has bent over backwards to help us and offer us comfort.
the mw's and dr's in Raigmore were so wonderful.
everyone came and spoke to us, walked with us thru those first few horrific days.
when tom was born, the Mw's from the first moment, treated him like he was alive. and a real little person, which he was just no longer with us.
they held him for me right after he was born, rubbing my hair telling me all about him.
how big and handsome he was.
talked to him, bathed him dressed him, and gave him back to us...
always keeping in our minds that he was our beloved little boy,
and that we had just a few precious hours to fit in a lifetime.
the chaplins in raigmore came to us several times.. doing anything they could to help. helpiong with arrangments where they could and generally being there when ever we needed to talk.
before i even came home, the mws here were calling down to check on me,
offering their thoughts and prayers. and once i came home. well what can i say, where i come from you would never have the caring and compassion there that you have here.
the medical staff, have been so very wonderful ...
my MW has been an angel... she has been here these last days.. to talk to me.. let me have a good cry and to reasure me! on top of checking my wound and giving me a hard time for going into cleaning rages... when i broke down! *Grins*
even the drs, have taken time from their busy busy schedules to comfort us, and help us thru this.. and as much demand as they have taking that extra time.. i really really thank all the medical staff!!
our friends and family have been wonderful..
sometimes you dont realise how much it means to you just to be able to talk to someone.
not about anything in particular.. and a lot of the times.. not even about thomas.. or the past week..
just silly little inconsequntial (spelling again) things.
things that uplift your spirit and make you laugh!!
I also wanted to make a special note to oliver vellacott and the baptist church.
Thomas's funeral was such a very beautiful service.
he had a perfect fare well.
his flowers were so beautiful and his wee little coffin was georgeous.
thank you claire for all your hard work.
but olivers service, was actually a very happy occasion, if you can belive it.
he comforted us, and made everyone feel that even though tom was no longer with us.. we would see him again, and that it was ok.
even at a time when nothing seems ok.
i want to thank everyone that came today,
I know it was a hard thing to do, as no one wants to see a baby be buried.
but knowing that so many cared, was very uplifting.
belive me if i hadnt had to be there.. i wouldnt have gone!
all in all it was a really good day, considering what the day was.
we laid our beautiful son to rest. But at the same time, i realised that i am not alone in this world.
that there are so many people that love us, and are here to walk thru this world with us,
that is one of the most precious gifts i have ever been given.
and i just really wanted to thank you all.
the folks here on the org. has really shown their true colors, and what a beautiful sight they are.
we have our fights, and lord knows we can bicker and hew and haw.. for weeks.
but like any good family this past week has shown me, how close knit we are.
and how much we care about one another.
we are a family here.
I want each and every one of you to know that.
and it has touched my heart and lifted my spirits no end to know that
there are so many people on the other side of this screen that care so much!
Thank You ALL From the Bottom Of My Heart.
You have made this last week bearable..
and I love you all
Brandy